I have been working through why my life has taken the turns it has over the last 10 months. Up and downs. Highlights and pure darkness. For me I think God needed me to grow up a little, mature. I know that He needed me to see the things I have seen these last few months, church done different. I grew up and served in the same type of churches, which isn’t a bad thing, I just needed a change of pace. Without the pressure that I sometimes felt in my last ministry, I have had time to think through and process who I am and what God wants me to do which has become a little more clearer. Bumpy roads have drawn Dawn and I closer and closer to God. Deeper understanding of completely relying on God. I’ve seen God use situations and work in us only to feel closer to Him than I have in years.
I could blame what I feel is a lot on my five wonderful years of college, not preparing me for ministry, or keeping my walk with God a priority and a few other things. But I shouldn’t. I viewed college as training for a job and not as an education. College is an education, a place to learn the foundation my career would be built on. I should have asked more questions instead of completely agreeing. I should have felt it was ok to learn from others outside the Christian Church.
My life maybe is not taking the path I once thought that it would. Maybe I’m not where I want to be, doing what I think I should be doing. But God is working it all out in His time. I pretty sure a lot of this enlightenment would not have broken through to the surface without coming to this time and place.
Just a little rambling as I sit here and think and read.
