We have come to the conclusion that for the time being God has for us to be in Daytona Beach. I never thought that I would be out of vocational ministry, but I have found a church that I am going to volunteer my time and talents with and look for a job outside of ministry. I have an interview in the morning and a few more resumes out. I was talking with a friend last night and He reminded me that even though I might not see where God is leading, historically God is faithful. I never thought that thoughts would go through my mind that God had left us out to dry. I never thought that I would struggle with my faith. How easy we are to praise Him during the good times and quick to think He left us when things get bad. I have to admit that I bought into American Christianity and its lack of teaching on trials and tribulations as a part of our journey. Our definition of blessing and thinking that God is always going to provide well paying jobs and leave us with extra money in the back at the end of the month and that He isn’t with us if He doesn’t. My ideas of who God is and isn’t have changed but when faced with those changes I turned back to my American Christianity roots and being to wonder where God is? After a few good conversations with friends I think I’m close to getting back on track and remembering that God is here and is going to take care of us.
